A Previously Elusive Conclusion I Drew Earlier This Morning Pertaining to Thoughts of My Past 6/05

I wanted to inform you all of a recent thought of mine that had hitherto evaded me. Namely, I have begun to wonder and hypothesize that, even as writerly, reportorial, semi-gossipy, and painterly as I am, I would not be as likely to almost constantly write various observational and journalistic, autobiographical essays on it, if I had completed my schooling and childhood in Kittery and graduated whole and entire with my class (that of 2001) instead of moving away and completing all things scholastic at the alien and inferior schools of cruddy ol' Eliot and semi-suburban South Berwick. Maybe I would be able to let it all go, the good and the bad of it, the domiciliary, vocational and scholastic; remembering it all fondly-but not missing it, not longing for it, not becoming nearly obsessed with it.....if it had not been stolen from me. For it was, in a manner of speaking.